When this month first began, I immediately felt a shift in my energy. I did not understand it at first, and I did not like it. It took me until a few days ago, after two weeks of swirling in a polarizing energy vortex, to understand what was really going on.
Ever since I started this blog, I have been posting two or three, sometimes even four posts a week, with excitement and ease. This month, however, I scarcely had the inspiration or motivation to put up one post for the whole week. I felt anxious and restless to get back to ‘firing on all cylinders’… until I had a breakthrough.
I suddenly realized it wasn’t that I was lacking in motivation or inspiration, but that my focus had shifted to what I needed in the moment. And what did I need? I needed to ground myself. I needed to sink out of my mind and relax into my heart. And nothing brings me more into my heart than my family, my dogs, my friends, and nature.
Over the past couple weeks, I have spent so much time digging my hands into fresh soil to cover our deck in beautiful annuals, strawberries, kale, and fresh herbs. I walked around barefoot and stretched all the tiny muscles in my feet and toes.
I spent many extra hours in bed cuddling and holding my dogs. I found absolute peace listening to their soft snores and feeling the warmth of their breath on my cheek.
I spent hours creating handmade birthday cards for all the wonderful humans I know who are born in May, and Mother’s Day cards for all the special mamas in my life. I used my giant set of markers to litter the pages in rainbows and flowers and funny quotes, and it warmed my entire Being.
I cooked fresh, simple meals that nourished my body and Spirit, and I spent hours gazing at the view from my living room window.
But by far the most important thing I did these last couple weeks was become quiet. I quieted my voice and my surroundings, which helped quiet my mind and allowed me to sink fully into my heart. Once I found that quietness, not only was I able to hear the sounds of birds chirping, leaves rustling, and raindrops falling, but I was able to hear my own heart beating. That steady rhythm grounded me even further into my Being, and ultimately brought me to a point of surrender and epiphany.
What I came to fully understand, was that as creators, we find ourselves in a constant state of ‘pouring’ from our cup. We open ourselves up to become channels for beauty and creativity to flow through. However, what we easily forget is that energy is required to remain an open channel. We must recharge if we are to continue to pour.
These past couple weeks have been all about my grounding and recharging. They have allowed me to shed another layer of conditioning, one which I did not even realize I was wearing until it was on the floor in front of me.
So often we think we must be in a constant state of ‘doing’ to see progress and results. Until now, I had only partially understood the need for ebb and flow, sun and moon, yin and yang. I believed we needed a break from action and doing simply to rest and restore. What I did not realize, is that when we surrender to necessary times of rest and reflection, we can achieve potentially the greatest progress of all – that which comes by the name of clarity.
It is only when we are grounded in our hearts and living by the guidance of our Intuition that we are free to receive Universal Knowledge. When we force ourselves to maintain our ego-driven thinking state, we deny the stream of Infinite Well-Being that can only be found through surrender. When we allow ourselves to be carried along by nurturing waters, we become enveloped by patience, peace, and understanding. We see why things are the way they are, and we understand that we do not have to push or force things to achieve results.
Before I started this post, I felt an enormous wave of peace wash over my Being. I finally understood that just because in that moment I was not actively doing what I had previously thought I needed to be doing to pursue my dream, did not mean I was pursuing it any less. In fact, one moment of surrender that leads to epiphany outweighs thousands of hours of toil and struggle.
Who would have thought it could be so simple? Certainly not our ego. It tries to tell us that life is a struggle in which we must always be doing, thinking, working, rushing, pushing. When we find a way to release our ego’s hold on us, and sink down from our minds into our hearts, we become peacefully guided by Intuition. Like a mother’s love, our Intuition is unconditional. It is always there, ready to nurture and support us, and steer us towards ultimate happiness and health. Our only jobs are to trust, surrender, and allow.
The stream of Well-Being does the rest.
Oh my loves, how peaceful it feels to be floating along right now, knowing I am cared for and guided by all the energy in The Universe. I encourage you to summon your trust, release your grip, and become swept up alongside me into these glorious, loving waters.
Until next time,
All my love,
Always and forever,